Nothing to feel bad about, CU4 - - it's like the bumper sticker says, "I used to be disgusted, now I'm just amused."
I think your problem (not yours personally, but the conservatives' problem in general) is one of too many choices. 20 years ago you would have voted McCain without holding your nose because he was in the mainstream of a party which had a sort of "One size fits all" strategy in selecting candidates but today they're as fractured as the Democrats.